Twinners! Reunited after over 2 years...

I know... I have been slackin on the whole writing thang! LOL :) I have now journeyed to Oregon for a while to be with family and friends. I have had the best last couple of days spending time with my niece and nephew! They are so much fun and getting so big! I so wish my husband could be here to enjoy all this with us!!! Being with family makes me miss him just that much more! I hope it gets a little easier...

  

My first day here I took the kids with holly to Build-A-Bear!!! They had the most absolute fun, ever! & they got to take home their "babies" they made! They were excited and happy! That is Jon's & I's gift to them for Christmas and birthdays :)

I have had a long B U S Y last couple of days to say the least but I would have it any other way. Its going to be a good year I just wish hubby was here to enjoy it with me. I am just having a hard couple of days being alone... but its part of the "job" and I wouldn't give it up for the world! I'll updated every few days or so!

100 reason to smile :)

So today is the day!!! I am getting ready to head out of here in just a few short hours to Oregon and Washington State! I am so excited I could just burst! But im trying to keep busy until then. But I cant wait to get home and see all my family and friends. Its been a VERY longgg time since I have been home more then a few days. I wish that hubby could go with me but he will as soon as he gets home! I am getting very anxious and doing everything to keep it all together... Its 4 or so in the morning and I just finished packing and putting together Jonathon's care package!

My favorite part is his box was the Jar project. I made one in particular that I named "100 reason to smile!" He has a bajillion reason to smile but 100 should be enough to brighten his mood while he is away :) I decorated a Jar and wrote out on 100 individual pieces of paper reason why my husband should smile. If and when he ever has a bad day or just needs his spirits lifted he can open the jar, pick out one reason and -S M I L E- :) I am so excited for him to get this along with all my letters and cards I have been saving up to send! Also his brand new computer! He is probably most excited about this. I guess I am too so that way I can talk to him more! Well I am off to to finish cleaning and the nresting before a longgg plane ride! Until later... :)

Some nerve people have.

It makes me sick to see how ignorant and selfish America is today! How could one think this is just "payback" and that "the world is better off with a few thousand left of them?" What happened to them was NOT their fault! We should all being willing to help each other out! Last I knew we were all the same HUMAN race! If you are thinking this, I feel sorry for you! We have over 50,000 US troops stationed over and you are going to let them suffer because you don't the US to go help?!?!
I mean seriously. This is just completely appalling to me! How could anyone NOT feel sorry for another human being?! America is completely and utterly shameful nowadays to say the least! We waste no time "borrowing" money from other countries and letting them help us in disasters such as Katrina but as soon as we start sending out help its like hell freezes over! I don't think we should be holding grudges on the past such as the "Pearl Harbor Attack." Yes, they did do that but we turned right around... invaded and bombed them! I think we are pretty even don't you think?

That is rant for the day, Hmph!

When we were dating

...I sent this in a letter to my husband.

I never really knew you

You were just another friend

But when I got to know you,

I let my heart unbend.

I couldn't help past memories

that would only make me cry

I had to forget my first love

and give love another try

So I've fallen in love with you

and I'll never let you go

I love you more than anyone

I just had to let you know

And if you ever wonder why

I don't know what I'll say

But I'll never stop loving you

each and every day

My feelings for you will never change

Just know my feelings are true

Just remember one thing

I Love You!

Oh, the inspiration.

...When I read this I was completely "blown" away... I L O V E D it!

"Never mistake motion for action." -Ernest Hemingway

I really love this quote <3

& last but not least...

To change ones life; Start immediately. Do it flamboyantly. N O expectations. 

Who am I?!

Sometimes I wonder what my "place" is in this crazy so-called world.......

When I think of something to write I go for it, but as soon as my hands touch the keyboard I go blank. I guess this happens to the B E S T of us... Am I right?! :/ 

I have been wondering lately who I am and what my calling is. Everyone wonders what they were meant to do. Why they were sent here to earth or in other words why God gave them their life. I guess this girl going through that right now. I have a lot of time on my hands to think and thats all I do... T H I N K. 

I don't know if this is healthy or if its just me be overly insecure about my thoughts but I guess I'll find out one day... Wont I? 

Wife & husband

Girls calling their boyfriends their "hubby" or "husband" when they are not married is VERY annoying to me. I see a lot lately and it tends to erk me. Its like over using "I Love You!" I posted before about the status on my FB wall that got blown up... Well I added to it after getting so many responses. & here is what I wrote:

____________________________________________________________________________________

For everyone else... I will say "almost, practically, technically" married IS NOT married. It just annoys me how so many people like to play "house" at the ages some of these girls/women are...

In MY opinion, that is a title you earn when you say, I do! It takes a lot of COMMITMENT & SACRIFICE to earn that, obviously starting with your vowels! Again, I am not targeting anyone in particular just in general. It was just how I was feeling about immature girls posting every five minutes about how hard their life is and how their "hubby" this or that. It gets completely and utterly ANNOYING. & even though I CAN & DO delete them off my friends I wanted to write and make my point clear so they can at least get the idea for the future. 

I guess I am just sensitive on the subject because of my situation. haha Whether I "chose" to marry a man who serves our country or not it still gets hard and its irritating to see people taking advantage of the little things in life or trying to skip ahead. Enjoy what you have now! Becuase you never know when it will end... Thats all :)

-Danyella

Just the smallest things.

Talk to my love today! It made me so sad to see him upset in the beginning of our conversation. I hate that he has to work nights. He doesn't get to enjoy life AT ALL. He told me he misses seeing the sun and being to go places and do stuff when its light outside. This touched me. It made me realize that people take the smallest things for granted in life, every single day! Anyone with me that agrees?
Before I married Jonathon, I would complain about stupid things that I wouldn't dare even let cross my mind now days. I remember when I was younger and how I hated daytime because I always had more fun at night and I would sleep the day away. One thing my husband made me realize is that I shouldn't take advantage of simple things that life gives up. Like a roof over your head, sunlight, home cooked food to eat, etc.
Jon has slept in mud puddles, gone days even weeks without seeing the sun and has eaten plenty of processed boxed food. He doesn't ask for much and if he does its always something simple.
I don't think Jonathon realizes how much he has effected my life and made me appreciate everything that I have. He is the one that made me feel important again... He has showed me that cycles can broken and there is more to life to materialistic things.

Well anyways enough about me going on and on. I'll post a couple pictures of him that I stole today during our chat! :)

One of those Moods.

So today I was feeling like I was in a rut. Havent one of my "down" days and just feeling like crap. & every time I seem to log into facebook I see some ungrate little girl complaining about her life sucks so much and how she cant see her "hubby" who mind you, isnt her hubby AT ALL. They are not married and should never get married in my opinion. I eventually posted how I felt and boyyy did my wall get blown up with comments! Good, bad, or just curious who I was talking about I didnt see anymore complaining after that LOL. & it felt good to let a little steam out.
After the 90298388409032... time of get pissed off and annoyed I wrote this on my status: 


"Seriously, quit whining about 'this or that'. Quit thinking you have it worse then anyone else. 
Quit saying your married when you really aren't. & Quit using someone else last name when its NOT yours. 
Most of you and your significant others have made choices to make things the way they are. Ugh, grow up."








Its LEGIT. To say the least :) 

Doctor offices are not my favorite.

Today has your typical crappy-weather, I-feel-like-"poo" kind of day. On a good note, I may have sold some of my stuff which is awesome! It feels good to start fresh and new :) Nothing like a shopping spree to fill one's void...LOL

I had a doctors appointment today and as I always do; dreaded it! I hate how gross some of them feel and I feel like I shouldn't be touching anything... not even the hand sanitizer to sanitize my hands! Anyone else feel this way? It just bothers me. Maybe its my OCD or just insecurities about getting sick. Either way I would rather stay clear of doctor offices! Besides having to sit in doctors office for two hours feeling as if I am being attacked by "cooties" this whether stinks! It's really bring me down lately! I want some sun and warmth like now! 

On another positive note... I spoke with hubby this morning! Only for about 5 minutes but that is definitely better then nothing!! I manage to grab a few shots of him hopefully he doesn't me showing him off too much. ;) He is good, just tired. That is understandable considering he works 16-18 hour days! He is definitely a trooper. He makes me so proud. I love you baby! 

Love Letter.

Today has been like every other day... Nothing too exciting but yet not boring. Just ordinary. Right before I went to bed I checked my email and to much of my surprised I received an email from my love asking me if I had received his "Love letter" yet and to send him his new computer. 
I was so excited to find out I DID receive his love letter and only read a few lines before the tears came a rolling!! He definitely means the world to me and never fails to amaze me! This man is my one and only and like I say everyday I couldn't ask for anyone better! i'll share a piece of his letter with all of you so everyone can see what I am talking about :) 


" 

‎...We'll be together soon enough. We continue to endure these challenges that God lays before us but know that they make us stronger together in the end and will forge an unbreakable bond between us that no one can compromise.

Tonight I want you to close your pretty eyes and picture me sittin' high atop in a box at night. Look into my eyes and see that I only have you on my mind. Hour after hour, day by day, week after week, month by month you're stuck to me like glue. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you..."

I cant say it enough but he one wonderful man. I am so happy that God blessed me with him as my soul mate. I know after reading this I will sleep good tonight. <3

Happy Anniversary To Us!

So today has already started off great! It's our wedding anniversary!! Got to talk to hubby and see him on webcam for a little while! I was so excited. I couldn't have gotten a better husband, life partner & best friend all in ONE! He makes me the happiest girl in the whole entire world! These last two years, married, have been the biggest roller coaster of my life but I wouldn't change a thing! Jonathon is the best thing to ever happen to me!

Our anniversary live chat <3

Jonathon- I love you so much baby! I want you to know that you make me feel like a million bucks! I don't regret anything we have been through and cant wait to see what the future holds for us! You make me so proud of you! I miss you but I hope you have an amazing day at work! :)

Things have been going so well lately! I hope we stay on this good streak for a while! I know Jon & I both deserve it and have been waiting for it. True meaning of happiness for us, is the suffering in between. :)
Thats whats make it all a little bit sweeter!

-Danyella

Washer & Dryer, YIPEE!

So today has been a fabulous day! Found a washer and dryer and got it delivered tonight! Sooo excited! I dont think I have been this excited to do laundry in... well... EVER!! On top of that I cleaned my whole house, did all my dishes and cant wait to start my first load of laundry here in a bit!
I also got to talk to hubby for over two hours today!!! He got his first "rest" day since he has been there! I was so excited! Cannot wait til he gets his new computer in the mail so we can talk more!! WOOOT :)

That smile makes me day just that much better! <3

Well hope my week or better yet MONTH keeps going this grrreeeaaatt!!! Off to start laundry....

-Danyella

1st Skype date, yeah!!

So today, I finally had my first skype date of the deployment!!! I was so excited when I heard my computer "ring!" Haha, I was asleep and all I hear was the skype call go off and I was up in no time!! I was excited to see my hubby and talk to him and goof off. He makes me heart flutter :)

He makes me so happy! I couldn't tell him enough how much I loved him and how much I cant wait to see him again even though its only been a month! He is very, very sick even though that smile could tell you different! :) He was put on bed rest and took the opportunity to skype me even though his butt should be sleeping. But I cant complain! He always says the sweetest thing to me and they just make me fall harder in love with him! He said "lets not ever have our love die, I couldn't stand to be apart from you." That, right there made me simply smile! He also said "I want you to know I'll love you forever. I hope we get to be together until we grow really old."

I replied with the obvious of course but still wondered if something was wrong. I asked him and he told me that a lot of the guys like to talk about their horror stories of girls leaving them while they are deployed and stealing all of their money and things. He knows I would NEVER hurt him in any way no matter what happens but I know he is only human and it crossed his mind just like it does with every other deployed man!
Nonetheless I had an AMAZING Skype date with him and cant wait for the next one. This man makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world! I couldnt be happier with where we are in life! He really is my soul mate and the best thing that EVER happened to me! The rest of today is definitely going to be a good day no matter what because I got to see and talk to him :D

Eeek! I hate nightmares!

I know I haven't updated this much but I'll try to keep on top of it as much as I can! We are now in the month of March! I cannot believe how fast these last few have went... Its crazy! Last month was good even though hubby left for deployment, it was has been going alright. Valentine's Day was a drag but then again it has been the last few years... We have yet to spend one together! Maybe next year?! :)
So March is going to be a busy month for me! Its almost our wedding anniversary (which I cannot believe!) and I am getting ready to go home to visit family for a while!!! I am so excited to see everyone. Especially my niece and nephew who I have missed oh so very much! But even in the mist of all this excitement and busy times I still miss my husband!
Last night I start taking my Melatonin (sleep aid) again which I haven't taken in forever! I love it, it helps me sleep and all but one of the side effects of it is nightmares. It didnt fail to remind me either! Not your typical "monster in the closet" or "under your bed" dream either. It was one which is every military loved one's worst fear.
I remember thinking right before I went to bed "I hope my love is alright and doing okay" just as I do the same, every night. But this night was different I had a dream that played off what I was thinking about. I remember falling asleep and waking up to a knock at the door. All I was thinking was "who the hell would come her so early." I walked out to the living room, unlocked the door and saw two officials standing there with some papers. They looked at and me and questionably said my name. I knew right then and there who they were and I was determined to run away. I just began crying and walking backwards towards my room. After a few seconds I woke up.
These guys were here to tell me something happened to my husband. They didn't have to tell who they were or why they were there, I just knew. I hate these kind of nightmares! I would go every night dreaming about monsters in my closet then have one of these all deployment! I really hope I don't have another and hope I hear from hubby soon. I'm sure he is fine but you just never know! Just these small things make me understand why life is so important and to never take anything for granted.
Well its still early and now that I have gotten this off my chest I am going to try and fall back asleep for a little while! I'll keep you all updated on life's lovely adventures!

-Danyella